The Search, in His Own Words
Two teachers took him as far as their meditation could go, and fasting took him to the edge of death. What was missing from both roads, and where did he find it instead?
The Buddha tells it himself. He mastered what Āḷāra Kālāma and Uddaka Rāmaputta taught, was offered the leadership of their followers and left, because neither attainment led to awakening. He lived on a handful of bean soup until his body wasted. Then he remembered sitting as a boy in the shade of a rose-apple tree while his father worked the fields, happy beyond desire, and asked himself why he should fear that happiness. Awake at last, he hesitated to teach until the god Brahmā Sahampati pleaded with him.
- asceticism
- awakening
- renunciation
- meditation
- concentration
- spiritual attainment
- knowledge
Enter a dialogue
- As a boy under a rose-apple tree you once knew a happiness free of desire. Why did remembering it, after years of self-torment, change your path?
- You mastered both of your first teachers' meditations and were offered their followers to lead. Why was even the highest state they knew not enough?
- You lived on a cupped handful of bean soup until your body wasted away. What did those austerities teach you, if not the way?
- Someone has spent years on a practice that brought real results but no peace. What does your leaving of two masters tell them?
- Once awake, you hesitated to teach, sure that no one would understand. Why did it take a god's pleading before you began?